iNsTrUcTiOnS: Name ten (10) of life's simple pleasures that you like the most, then pick ten (10) people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used.

hmmm, i tag (hirap naman ito, almost everyone has already been tagged...) kuya gunns, bcel, migs, eugene, beth, hannah, charm, diane, ate jam, ate daph.  

in call center environment, it's defined as seat shortage. during hot seating period, we log out of our workstations during our lunch break to let newly arrived agents use it. after lunch, we punch in "maxcap" and wait for other stations to be available.

in a group of friends, it's what we call grilling time wherein you are asked neverbeenasked or don'twannaanswer/yet questions.  i had my latest hot seat yesterday with a group of churchfriends and i got away with it well you have to congratulate me. :)

how i react when i'm being grilled, i owe it to my brothers and sisters in esbi. hehe:) thank you for training me so well! those laglagan that we had... harhar!

with friends like us, who needs enemies?

                               Your Love Oh Lord

 
 Artist:
Third Day
 Album:
Time
 Song:
Your Love Oh Lord

Your love, oh Lord  

Reaches to the heavens  

Your faithfulness stretches to the sky  

Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains  

Your justice flows like the ocean's tide  

I will lift my voice  

To worship You, my King  

I will find my strength  

In the shadow of your wings

(haven't heard this song yet but it just says everything i feel right now... hay Lord...)

yup, i finally resigned. i'm quitting the zombie/vampire life/call girl/whateveryouwannacallit life and it would end before august ends. currently looking for a new job, somewhere in paranaque or anywhere near it. i'm starting to panic again, thinking of the things to come but God tells me to obey and trust HIm. He wants me to have faith that pleases Him and Him alone.

funny thing is i got a suspension notice days after i submitted my resignation letter. hehe:) one for being absent on a block-off day and another for a no-call-no-show. oh well. serves me right for slacking off. anyway, the suspension's yet to be scheduled. hmmm, 6day off from my work plus 2day terminal leave..yahoo!! i would have time to go to UP and visit esbi again! time to go on movie marathon and curl up on my bed to finish reading my books which by the way are already gathering up dust.

is suspension something to be really nervous of? will it show on my clearance? i nearly cried the first time my team leader told me but thinking about it, it sounds more fun to me. ahahaha! may kilala akong sasakit ang ulo sa akin pero di naman niya alam itong blog ko kaya ok lang. haha! sorry to you my dear. :p

as of now, i have companies to apply to, less than a month to spend with my teammates, be good with my calls, and enjoy the rest of my convergys days. :)

nga pala, sabi ng obgyne ko, after a pelvic ultrasound that i have a possible ovarian cyst. though, nothing to be worried about coz it's yet to be confirmed on my next ultrasound sometime next week. tapos, i had blood analysis a while ago, found out my red blood cell membrane is weak. it's actually not strong enough to carry oxygen and thus results to poor blood circulation plus i have ITP (Idiopathic Thrombocytopenic Purpura), a blood abnormality in which the body produces antibodies against it's own platelets. my normal platelet count is actually lower than an average person's count. i'm actually aware of my disease since 5yearsold but i'm not taking it seriously. the doctor said it could be the cause of my death. since i don't ahve enough platelets, i don't clot easily so i could die of blood loss if ever i would be seriously wounded. sabi pa nung nurse, she has a niece with itp who died because of it. naloka ako. plus my red blodd cells are so grouped or attached together which means my blood's acidic so i have to cut off or lessen sugar intake and pork because i could be prone to diabetes. need to cut off caffeine also and add up vit.b12 or b complex and folic acid and my regular iron with vit.c to my diet. that's what the obgyne also told me.

i'm only 22 years old and i already ahve lots of health probs.

discipline, proper food, enough sleep is what i need

and a special friend would also help. special friend lang muna. hehe :p

one of the moments when all i want to do is to succumb to tears and let it all go. if tears would make me as still as You want me to be then i'll go ahead and shed them all.

there are lots of things that are happening. is it just me?

1)

is it wrong to tell what's on my mind or what i would feel? is it hurtful to realize and feel that not all the help you could offer can be needed? is it not ok to realize that not all people depend on what we can do for them? hay naku. i know i've hurt someone lately, must be the way i said it. it's just that i don't think i would need that extra help. i just think that God has given me enough abilities to go on my own and that if He wills it, it will happen. I'm sorry po. i didn't mean to hurt you

Lord, keep watch over my tongue. may i speak with grace and may my words abound with love...

2)

duwag lang ang taong di nagsasabi ng totoo. tama?

i do not know why i'm here when i know that i shouldn't and yet, i still am confused. is it right for me to be here? nalani told me to relax, nothing's happenin yet. jampotski says, do not fret for fussing leads to sin. fretting means not trusting God enough to believe that He is incharge of what's happening.

yes, i am fretting. i am nervous and i don't know what to do. to be in this place at the very moment, i wish i have the courage to walk out of here. i just feel so transparent. can they read my mind? my earlier post says i'm being still. obviously, i'm not. God does reveal things in His own way. Lord, does it have to be this way?

should have trusted my instincts a while ago. i shouldn't have gone here.

God, shield me. i don't want to do something that would hinder Your will for me. this is just a simple situation, so simple but oh so complicated.

breathe in...breathe out....

ok, here's what you're going to do. breathe, save this entry, walk out there with a big confident smile. as nalani said, nothing's happening yet.

You asked me to be still and i am being still as i can be.

You asked me to wait and i have been waiting.

You asked me to do it with joy and i have been anticipating what You will do as joyfully as i can be.

You asked me to be patient and wait for your pacing and i am being patient.

I am being still, waiting joyfully and trying hard to be patient,

But Lord, i just want ask a little question,

What am i waiting for?

What do you have in store for me?

Will the years of waiting be worth it?

In my heart i know that it will be

and that it will be perfect as You would want it to be

Keep me as still as a dove

As i wait

joyfully

patiently.

i'm itching to write a lot but the noise in this computer shop is irritating me. wish i could just vanish for a while with this pc to a quiet place somewhere. balik ko na lang after itong computer. hehe! :D

just arrived last night from baguio, three fun "teambuilding" days with our team from work. also had the opportunity to spend some time with my sister which is one thing i miss so much. i feel like i've been missing a lot these days. i'm enjoying my work, loving every minute i spend with my team mates. this baguio galore i had with them made me appreciate and know them more. our beliefs may not be the same but i have seen God and felt His love thru them in many many ways.

yun lang muna for now. i really can't find words to say what i feel. can't blame these kids for loving computer games. i just wish they could turn the volume a little lower. hay. :)